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Amanda Ayako


Drinking dreams
I have drinking dreams sometimes Drinking nightmares, I call them. They’re dreams in which I take a drink and all hell ensues. Actually,...

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Jan 14, 20232 min read
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Growing Pains
This past weekend would have been my grandmother’s 103rd birthday.

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Oct 28, 20216 min read
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Moving
Can we all just agree that moving is the fucking worst? (Sorry for the adjective, Mom, but I feel it is warranted here.)

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Oct 14, 20214 min read
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What's Next?
As I look ahead, my greatest priority is continuing the critical work I've been doing on myself.

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Oct 1, 20216 min read
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My Story
On September 26th, by the grace of God, I celebrated one year of continuous sobriety from alcohol.

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Sep 29, 202112 min read
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One. Year.
Yesterday marked 365 days of continuous sobriety for me. I am beyond grateful.

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Sep 27, 20213 min read
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Dreams
I want to write a book. Lots of books, actually. I want to be an author.

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Sep 18, 20217 min read
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Dear Alcohol,
I am done giving up everything for you.

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Aug 25, 20216 min read
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Beyond my Wildest Dreams
Looking back over the past few weeks, I can’t help but stand dumbfounded in awe of how lucky I am and how blessed I’ve been.

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Jul 16, 20214 min read
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Work from Rest
It has been a while. A long while filled with vacation, pneumonia, existential crises, soul-searching, self-discovery and a sh*t ton of ice

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Jul 14, 202111 min read
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Gratitude
Having spent the last week surrounded by family, love and sunshine, I can’t help but be overwhelmed with gratitude.

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May 24, 20215 min read
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Shame Gremlins, Isolation and the magic that is writing
I cannot tell you how many times I rewrote this piece prior to realizing that the shame gremlins had hijacked my brain.

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May 5, 20215 min read
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Asian, Anonymous
Why are there so few Asians in recovery?

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Apr 30, 20217 min read
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The Truest Most Beautiful Life
What is the truest most beautiful life you can imagine? It’s a question Glennon Doyle poses in her book “Untamed.” A book which I first...

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Apr 28, 20213 min read
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My book stinks (so far...)
I'm 6,000 words away from hitting the word count I want to achieve for my book. There's just one problem. My book... well... it stinks....

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Don't Call It a Resolution: Part II
In 2025, I will write more.

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Election Reflection
Reflections on elections past.

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